My Name is Dylan, 18 years old, and had the most loving wonderful relationship of my life. I met this through my friends. She sadly lives far away on Marthas Vineyard Mass. We started to seriously date, last august after my birthday. At least once a month I would come down and visit her for a weekend or so, but me leaving was very tough for her. We had our first prom together, and shared are first make love session together. She and i have very similar personality. she became my life, and i did everything for her happiness, she called my loving names, and was very caring and soothing to me, we never had an argument really, maybe a few rough patches, of thinking about taking a break to see if i was the one, but she realized she loved me to much to do that. we had are fist prom, and her parents began to like me allot. we made each other things and gave letters. i made a book of are love, and both rote in it together making it our own love book, to share are thoughts of each other. soon the summer came, i saw her all the time. we made love every chance we could get, we loved each other so much we both used to cry about how much we loved each other. she called me her brightest star. she soon came to Maine with me, and when to a film festival with me, and slept I'm my bed as a guest. she was so very happy and so in love she never wanted to lose me, she felt the i completed her like she said here:
I love you so freaking much my baby.
you complete me and my world. and you make it whole. before i met u it was broken, shattered into a million pieces and then i met u and u put it all back together. i love you with all my heart. and you mean the world to me, i never want to lose you EVER. you make me so happy, and wen i am sad u make it all go away. you do things for me i never thought anyone would do. i always thought that i would never get a boyfriend that is this amazing and sweet and everything and then i got you.
I love you Dylan.
Hello Annie my love ive been thinking allot these days and i was looking back at all the other girls in my life and relized they all had the same problem....... they were'nt YOU, and now all my problems are solved by you darling your soo awesome and good to me i wish i could give you even more and more i love you thanks for making my wish come true <3
a week after she came to my house in Maine, she was very sad that i left, and wanted me back as soon as possible. our year anniversary was coming up soon, and we stated to plan it out, she wanted a ring of sorts, and i got it for her. a week before i was going to come down and see her. she called me, and said you was going to take a break from our relationship, she said that it was getting too hard for her emotionally, the whole long distance thing. she was sad for most of the year and happy less of the time with out me. she said i will always be in a place of her heart and that it was a hard decision to make. but it was she felt a break was healthy for her right now. and wanted to try to date other people and grow or get her feet wet, and to possibly see if i was truly the one for her. she made a promise if things don't work out with this other guy she has met she would take me back into her heart. she is trying to do what best she feels for her right now. i am very sad and crushed of course. i love her so much. i found if you love someone so much you have to be willing to let her go. she calls me and messages me sometimes, to check in and see how I'm doing, which helps allot. i tell her how i feel, and she understands, and always says there's a chance we could be together again. to this day i wear her ring i was going to give her, with are names on it, and with in the band states together forever, i put her things in a box that she gave me for the hurt is to great. i wear her ring cause there is truly no other i would rather love then her and dating is just painful and pointless to my heart. i feel that i can only wait and see what happens and have some hope. most of her friend don't think her new bf will last a month. and that this happened before and she did indeed come back to me. i respect her choices and support her but a question remains in my heart....
My question is I guess is what steps must I take to ensure this break will end in the positive effect that she will take me back into her heart. In this situation is it possible that she means what she said. Did she mean how much she loved me, and could she leave me so suddenly when she was so in love, I guess I'm just really confused? People all over thought we had the most loving strongest relationship for our age. Annie said we were made for each other and that we were soul mates promising to have my children and marries me. n she made very powerful pledges to me that made cry of happiness. social workers I've talked to say that she is scared of her news emotional feelings for me, and is afraid of getting hurt. and is confused and needs space to sort things out in her life. Annie says, she will indeed take me back someday. I think it should be true, if are love was so strong and probably still is. I know her love for me is still there. I guess who ever may read my long story I just ask for your insight and advise to make this break work out for both of us positively. Maybe give some hope into my heart. Thank you for reading I'm very much open to your opinions and thoughts, they will help me greatly.
how are you holding up? ~Annie
hey thanks soo much for checking in, i'm doing better than i was before, i had a few treatments of acupuncture, and thast calmed me down alot, and ive just learned to thank you in my mind, for all the expirieneces you gave me, which helps me controll my many hard to see happy memories. soo im doing better, thank you for asking that helps as well *smiles. your the best annie i hope youl keep being happy for a long wile, thats all i like to hear. keep in touch i allways like to hear how your doing and whats going in that happy world of yours =] ~Dylan
I will never stop loving her till my dying day i feel so strongly in my heart and soul.
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Dylan, eventhough it is difficult, give her the space she needs ! 
