courtesy of excitingsounds
Sorry that my blog is starting to sound like a segment from a soap opera entitled “As The Stomach Churns”, but I just need to vent because I am angry. I thought that when people first got married, they were all lovey dovey and, if they had to watch *****, they would do it as a couple, to turn each other on. But, what did I find? I got up at 5:30 this morning and I walked into the living room because I knew my new husband was supposed to have oral surgery this morning, and he was sitting there watching two lesbians going at it on a ***** site!
Okay. Let’s cut to the chase. I wasn’t upset that he was watching *****... it was the TYPE of ***** which upset me. He knows that I broke off with my ex because he subjected me to a ***** with a nasty woman. When my ex did that, I felt like a character in the movie “9-1/2 Weeks” with Michele Pfeiffer and Mickey Rourke, if you remember the scene at the end of the movie where Mickey invited another woman into their bed, blindfolded Michele and made her believe he was the one who was ”ministering” to her. I felt betrayed and violated. And, the worst part was that my ex had no idea how much his bringing another woman into my bed hurt me.. especially a woman who was determined to break us up by making my ex believe I was nuts for not wanting this salacious activity.
My husband knows that I am not judgmental but that I don’t have a lesbian bone in my body. He knows the reason I broke off with my ex. My ex used to watch lesbian ***** all the time before he brought that horrible, vindictive woman into our bed. I didn’t realize my ex was trying to ”program me” and that it was just something he enjoyed watching.
My husband knows the whole story about my ex and me. He knows how much I abhor the idea of *****, foursomes or anything sexual which doesn’t involve one man and one woman. So, of course, he had to watch this repulsive stuff while he thought I was still sleeping and I caught him in the act.
I couldn’t help expressing my feelings. I told him that, if he had been watching a man and woman “going at it” or if he had asked me to watch some ***** with him, I wouldn’t have had a problem with his having watched *****. But instead he watched the kind of ***** which turns my stomach and, I don’t care what anyone says, it’s a heck of a way to start a marriage – to do this in secret. Of course, he said he wouldn’t do it anymore. Yeah, right. And, pigs can fly. I told him that, as far as I’m concerned, I don’t give a rat’s a* if he does it anymore.. the fact that he did it at all so early in our marriage showed poor judgment, and my mistrust of him has reared its ugly head again.
Of course, my EX is now on his best behavior... He’s probably hoping my marriage will fail. I really want it to succeed, but I wonder what’s going to pop up next. I told my husband a few months ago, when we weren’t married yet and he tried to join a swingers’ site with me as the female part of a swinging couple without my knowledge, that, if this is what he wants out of marriage, he’d better find himself another willing female.
He swore up and down that he only did this because he knew my ex and I had had a ***** and he thought I might not mind this. But, that wasn’t the point. The point was that he joined the site without my knowledge. Heck. We could have gotten married and he could have sprung this on me after the fact and I might even have divorced him! He could have asked me before he joined the site if this is something I might want to try. But no.. instead he joined the site in secret before we even tied the knot. And, I happened to find this on our computer by accident. Of course, when I trashed the idea, he unsubscribed from the site. I want to have a relaxing marriage.. I don’t want to become a Private Eye or a shrew!
My new husband he’s always in Giggles, the ***** store. He event has an account there. And now, he’s watching lesbian ***** in the morning instead of making love to me. I often tell girls on RT that just because a man watches ***** doesn’t mean he isn’t interested, but I’m beginning to understand where some of these gals are coming from. The type of ***** might be significant. And, also the timing.. what woman wants to find her husband watching lesbian ***** the day after their wedding, unless, of course, she has lesbian tendencies? And, wouldn’t most normal women want their men to make love to them instead?
So, here’s the latest episode of “As The Stomach Churns”... to be continued ....