Broken up with my girlfriend of 2 years and just want her back

I recently been in a relationship with a girl who has never been with a girl before.
She was previously engaged a male who she had been with for 5 years or so..
We got on so well and she decided she was no longer in love with the male.
We feel deeply in love and to be honest i have been a bit of a b**tch and made things so sh*t in the relationship.
I cheated and i was a complete cow.
Im moody and just used to snap at her for things many people would just let pass by.
My ex girlfiend pops back in the picture and my girlfriend has stressed to me on numerous times she isnt comfortable with this.
She asked me to choose and i just lost it one night and chose the Ex.
I went round to see her that night and I just couldnt do it ( my ex that is)
I got to her front door and just couldnt go in, i burst into tears and knew i had made the worse decision ever.
I have tried everything to make this up to my girl. but she wont take me back and is so angry. spitting angry words at me which i know is ok coz yes im the one who screwed her over.
I dont know what to do and i Just want her back.. it sucks it went this far for me to realise she was the one. But i miss her like crazy and just want her back.. I dunno whether I need time or just to walk away all together because to me it seems like im dead to her now..
I wish i could turn back time but i know thats a whole lot easier said then done.
I just want some advice on what to do and what to so next??
i love her and do want to spend the rest of my life with her and do not want to give up without a fight. Im dead without her..
Thanks
x

Hello bi_chic, welcome to the forum


Well, it's rather hard to say what you can do to change your girlfriend's mind. Sometimes regret and promising better isn't enough for some people because the hurt goes too deep.

Perhaps you can start building up trust again if you suggest her to become 'friends' again and slowly work towards getting your relationship back...