confused miss my ex want him back

I REALLY DO MISS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE I MEAN WE WAS TOGETHER FOR A WHOLE YEAR WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AT THE BEGINNING BUT AT THEEND IT START TURNING I MEAN HE WOULD GET OTHER GIRLSNUMBERS AND STUFF LIKE I DONT KNOW AND I ALWAYS HAD AN ATTITUDE AND ALWAYS WANTED TO FIGHT BUT THEN WE GOT INTO A HUGE FIGHT HWERE HE HAD TO CALL THE POLICE ON ME AND ALL THIS HAPPEND ON OUR 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY...I MISS HIM SO MUC BUT I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL I WROTE HIM A LETTER TO MEET ME SOMWHERE AND IF HE COME HE STILL LOVE ME BUT IF HE DONT COME HE DONE WITH ME WHAT SHOULD I DO SHOULD I CALL HIM I REALLY LOVE HIM AND MISS HIM I THINK ABOUT HIM EVERYDAY EVERYNIGHT AND EVERY DREAM IS ABOUT HIM...NO BOY TO ME SEEMS RIGHT BECASUE I LVOE HIM...I JUST WANT HIM BAKC IN MY LIFE CNA SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME I NEED ADVICE ON WHAT TO DO...DO YOU THINK HE WILL OCME BACK TO ME...HELP ME PLEASE!!!!! :

Hi DiorDivine, welcome to the forum

I am lost for words Why did you let it come to this?