Confused/Depressed/Anxiety

Ok hello everyone. I have a problem with my relationship, and well Ill make it short as possible. Ok I date this girl for almost a year and we had our issues, moreless she was never in a serious relationship and didn't realize she was just pushing me away. It was basically all about her and what she wanted. She was trying a little bit but would only last like a week if that then right back. So I eventually broke up with her. For almsot 2 months we didn't really talk or anything she would IM me text call pretty much stalk. I was scared till she came to my work and after everything gave in and we dated for another 3 months and I just wasn't giving it my all, and she did change. The thing is she went from one extreme to the other as giving tooo much into the relationship now and that pushed me away too and well yeah I just bailed again. I will admit I have a hard time stating things that are on my mind. I usualy keep them bottled up. Which i know is not healthy for me or any relationship really. She knows this, and she also knows that I can be taken advantage of too. (which in a way I feel like she was doing at times wether she ment to or not.) Well after almost 2 months she IMed me again and well yeah I talked to her. I actually called her, but unsure why I did. Yes, I miss her but then when I talk to her or even hang out because we did this past Wed. I get frustrated. I know what Im doing isn't fair to her either. Now she knows I had plans for tonight and invited me to a Hayride she has an extra tix. (duno if she already paid and is stating they are free or what) She also seems upset that I didn't say yes I would go. (which I understand to a point) But if i go i feel like im givin in and giving her control again. I just dont' know what to do anymore.. any help greatly appreciate thanks.

A healthy relationship is all about balance where both parties feel like they are equally contributing to the relationship. Have you tried to stop her when she's trying to give too much and talk to her about it. It seems like you two seem to just have a communication problem on what you both want. You mentioned you keep things bottled up but you should say something when there's something that displeases you. And the same thing goes for her instead of just breaking it off.

It is a communication but in a way I think she pushed me so far away the first time its hard to even return to the way I was. I try to say whats on my mind and its hard. I usually just go quiet. I do believe sometimes that some things are better left onsaid. She seems to say everything and is very out going and blunt too. That is something I told her I cannot handle. She is a great girl but I just don't know to be honest. Is it worth even trying again (when I feel like I won't be able to give it all)

Well, you can only go back to an ex if there are changes to a person that caused you two to break up. You can't just stay quiet the rest of the relationship if there are things you want to say. That's not healthy. For me, when both parties cannot communicate, eventually there will be big problem sooner or later.