dying inside

ok , i just had another breakup little over two weeks ago , she had police call me and tell me not to contact her . well i tried but after 3 day after the breakup i emailed her with suggestion we give this a true chance instead of breaking up every few weeks and do couples counselin . i got another call from police warning me . we moved to Wyoming 5monthes ago and there has been several agruments including her assaulting me and demanding i not answer calls from my kids home . at this point ive gone to one counsel session and to my story and more. i got to the point today that it was bothering me so much i had a lady friend call her and ask if she was still dating me because she was interested in me . she said no we arent dating and of course wanted to know who it was and how she got number . So, whether it was right or not at least i know where i stand and i need to move on . here is the problem i have never been on my own and to be honesty im afraid to be lonely. i dont have any friends outside working hours and the bar scence is the only social activity for singles here cause its remote . right now im feeling depressed and not motivated and trying to figuire out how long / or method i can use to move on and rid myself of the false hope and memory of us

Pctech68, you are in a difficult situation. After a break up people need other people to keep their minds off the pain. However, you could try to convince yourself this is a challenge - making it into a goal to start to be happy on your own. You can imagine the feeling of fulfillment you will have when you will reach that stage? People are born alone and people die alone, sir. That's something to think about

well since im not to contact her and didnt get a response on the call . im trying to suck it up and find ways to stay busy or distracted . i believe that the salvaging the relationship is out of my hands and should not contact her no matter what and try to forget about her .Maybe she will return maybe not ,i do care for her but love doesnt work one sided. what a mess

Indeed, pctech68 - it takes two to tango...

Well , i its over now so i can move on .