Feeling hurt

Ok, what happened....

A couple of years ago i met someone through a friend....i felt really lost and depressed...I was in a state of absolute despair and i tired to explain to her how difficult it was for me...but despite all of this she still wanted to see me...I tried to explain that it was just to difficult but she kept reassuring me that she understood my situation...Every time i went out i felt unbearably lost and so stressed out and anxious i literally couldn't think or function so it was an impossible situation and basically things didn't work out but then despite everything she said she pretty much ignores me....the thing is I know what i was like to be around and i don't blame her for a second for not wanting to see me....couldn't expect anyone to want to be around someone like that...but then i overheard friends talking about how she said she wouldn't come around to the house as long as i was there and how awkward and boring i was and that i was no fun to be around.....just felt so hurt and betrayed that she knew what i had to go through and how difficult it was yet she could just judge and criticize me when i couldn't cope....and it's like she had no responsibility or emotion for what i felt....she didn't even acknowledged the reason why...I don't know if she even realized the impact that had on my life...I was already feeling hopeless and vulnerable and I couldn't see a way out....I contemplated ending my life every day I felt so bad...then i hear all of this and it just made me feel worthless and pathetic....

Wondered about writing her an email or letter and explaining what i had to go through and how i felt...maybe i would feel better if i felt she understood...but don't know if that's just going to seem like a bitter attempt to get back at her or if should would even care to read it anyway....I don't know....

appreciate your thoughts. thanks

She probably didn't understand or even want to understand what you were going through and treated it as though you were going to entertain her. Don't let her decide what you feel. Judging by what she said, she was looking for fun and not really to be there for you.

Thanks guy appreciate your thoughts

You're welcome.