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Me drowning has stopped for now, and have been pulled to the real world. the one thing i've been waiting for happened. and i am happy that i looked beautiful. That she didn't see me in my bad times, but in my goodtimes. the friendship , i will never forget. but it is something that was gone for the better . i have not found my meaning after all these years, but will just have to wait. though i am impatient. i will try my hardest for the day i will get rewarded. i miss her it's true, even though we hurt eachother, but mostly i hurt her. but i do not regret it. i never will. beacuse without that i wouldn't have survived. she held me and i held her. but after a while we only kept drowning ourselves more. we are now better than before, though she better than me.it's not perfect but, it is getting better. i am glad i saw her today. i freindship that has kept me alive during those times.

Hi loveistheanswer, welcome to the forum

I'm afraid your message is a bit cryptic to me so I don't quite understand what you are saying here

You broke up and both of you are feeling better now but wouldn't have foregone on the experience?