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Posted 2 Months, 2 Weeks ago
DMC
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I started dating this girl and everything was perfect just like every relationship at this point. See I am in my second year of college and she is a senior in highschool so she still has a lot of growing up to do. But anyways I gave her everything I had I always treated her with honesty and always gave her respect. Even though I work and go to school full time she always wanted more and more. Trust me I gave and did more things for her than most guys she will meet but still wanted more. I felt like it was a never ending road created by her. She really never appreciated anything I did. But she would always turn the situation around to make it my fault. It was my fault that I didnt pay enough attention to her. She said that she counted on me and I let her down. She has it in her mind that she will find a guy 100% perfect. Sorry we are not and will never be perfect. Nothing was ever good enough. Even though I was mostly pissed off at the relationship I still miss her and love her more than anything. Well everyhting was going pretty good but all of the sudden she started acting distant to me so I obviously knew something was wrong. She broke up with me just like that.
I was devestated and even though I was unhappy this was really not the ending I wanted to happen. I was willing to fight for it. I really loved her and when you love someone that much you will do anything you can. But just after everything she told me (like how much she loved me, how she couldnt see herself with anyone else) I felt liek it was all lies.
I found out that not even after two weeks of us breaking up she was with some Junior from her high school. Ouch!
Talk about a slap in the face. But about a week after I had found out she called me immediately starting the conversation off by saying she wanted her movies and some other stuff back. It hurt me cause I would though she had enough heart to ask me how I was doing. DOES ANYONE KNOW WHY SHE WOULD ACT SO HAPPY? I hope someone can answer that. Anyways she acted like she was happy as can be and had enough nerv to tell me how excited she was to be with this junior guy. Another ouch! It absolutly crushed me. I dropped her stuff off at her house while she was gone. About a week later she texted me and thanked me for dropping her stuff off. ANOTHER QUESTION. WHY DID SHE WAIT A WEEK TO TELL ME THANK YOU AND TO TELL ME THAT I HAD SOME STUFF AT HER HOUSE THAT I NEEDED TO PICK UP?
I was so feed up with this I feel that if you dont want to be with me that dont come in and out talking to me. I ended up telling her to throw me shit out cause I didnt need it anymore. She said that she didnt want to do that. I told her that it was easy enough to throw me out than what would be the big deal of throwing my shit out. She wondered why I was mad at her. I was so pissed off that she asked a stupid question like that. I gave her ten great reasons why I was mad and ended up telling her that I wanted nothing to do with her anymore and to stop texting me and calling me. I havent talked to her since. That was about a month and a half ago. I hope I did the right thing. I did it for myself. But still I am sitting here missing her and wanting that satisfaction of being wanted by her. I want her to call me and tell me she made a mistake and wants me back. But I wouldnt take her back cause once a realtionship is broken its broken. I just want to be in control once again. Is it wrong to want this. I dont know. I wonder if she ever even thinks about me. I really did more than most would do for her and it kills me to think it didnt even leave a dent on her. Do guys and girls think she will come into my life again. Please give me some advice. Or just your input. Thanks for reading.
Last Edit: 2008/10/21 21:46 By DMC.
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Posted 2 Months, 1 Week ago
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It could be she never really was serious about you anyway, DMC
I think your relationship with her was to her more a form of selfishness than actually want to share things, the 'giving and taking' thing, that's so important in relationships.

Did you think about that?
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Posted 2 Months, 1 Week ago
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Yeah I think you are right. I just feel really stupid for thinking that she really did can a shit. Just after all the things she told me it is hard to take a slap to the face. But sorry to say she is only 17 years old so I think maturity had a lot to do with it. I am 20 years old and I should have known better. Actually to tell you the truth I need to give up all hope for her to realize her mistake because sadly she isnt smart enough to realize it and if she were to realize it and want me back i would just end up telling her to go take a hike. So I would be in the same place where I am now. I just would be a little bit more confindent. But that is ok.
Do you think this is the right idea for me to do?
Just give up hope and move on, let things happen for themselves.

Devin
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