After 2 years breaking because of college...

Well it goes like this...I'm in love with this girl and you know we've been through all the things of a regular relationship...the little arguments to the big almost relationship ending arguments. We've been together for 2 years (in 3 months though) and I'm a senior at my high school. She's already in college locally and is planning to go to Texas University at Austin (about 6 hours away). I do everything for this girl. She sometimes has self esteem issues so I'm always catching myself calling her beautiful and things like babe you know you're the most gorgeous woman i could possibly ever imagine. Yah know...I let her know that she's my little blessing and when I'm with her nothing else, but God and us matters. I try to do everything as if I were losing her. I bring her, her favorite flowers just so she has a fresh bouquette in her room, bring her foods she likes to snack on, massage when she's feeling sore from working out so much, drive over to her house just to see that beautiful smile of hers. She's always had problems with expressing her feelings though because her dad is an abusive alcholic who has a safe in house with around 30 guns in it (ex army man) and she's not used to being showed love, but she's gotten better since we've been together and all of that just make me want to work even harder at being everything she could need in a person. I try my best to give her the world because she is MY world, but it backfires. Sometimes she finds me to clingy and of course it frustrates me, but we do move on (though you can tell the problem still lingers). Well now with the whole college thing she wants to break up and go our seperate ways because she believes it would be the best thing for both of us. You know you try not to think about it until it comes around. You try to go on with the relationship pretending it'll never...Well now it's here and I'm scared shitless. She still wants me to be there and not just disappear out of her life, but I mean she's my first love and everything. She said she doesn't believe she'll find anyone who'll replace me. I really can't imagine just being her friend and everything knowing that this is the woman I fell in love with. She says she loves me too and it's nothing that I did. I've been perfect. She thinks if we love each other enough someday in the future we'll get back together. We'll date other people and eventually realize that the only person for each one of us is each other. I don't want to take that chance with the love of my life. And another we're both still virgens and just the thought of her losing her virginity to just some dude is just out of the question in my mind...I mean that's my baby girl and it just sickens me to even think that might happen. Just the thought of another guy being with her is like hell on earth. I don't know what to do and I am just going absolutely OUT OF MY MIND with this whole situation. I can't stop thinking of her, I just have a constant headache, and sometimes I just start crying knowing I'm about to lose her...please help me!!!

You may hate to hear this but she's actually very mature about her decision and it's not because she doesn't love you anymore. And she's right about if you two were meant to be together, one day she will be with you in the future. Are you 100% certain that she will be lose her virginity to another guy? Not EVERY girl in this world puts out before marriage so you know but a vast majority(at least my friends) do. But all of us are individuals. As for you, if your feelings are too strong to deal with, you'll just have to take a break from her and tell her that. Be honest because you both still love each other. If she cared, she would understand. Breaking up sucks. I think everybody who's on this board has felt shitty from it. But learning how to move forward is important. Always remember if you love yourself, other girls will like you too. I hope this helps.