I don't get what the hell happen.

So, she called off our rilationship 2 weeks ago 2 days before my birthday.Reason: she said after 1 and 1/2 dating she feels restless and is afraid of something, but she can not tell me. I've been always supportive and helping,I was told " I love you so much and I want you to stay forever", after 2 weeks I'm told "I don't feel anything for you so we better don't see each other.I was called for my birthday and everything was nice and fine. I just mention that if she wants we can go and have dinner together.She said o.k. , so she called me and said o.k lets do it Monday, monday came she canceled, lets do it Wednesday she canceled again and told me -I'm afraid if we see each other I may do something i don't want!!!! /I assume get together - the best present that would be for me. I love her from my heart so so much. So she said I want call you in a few days.???? I'm not calling her because I assume she wants some space , but the thing is that she said to me - I don't have any feeling for you, but the way she acts...before braking we had dinner and when I was leaving her at her place she hug me and then while huging me she said that's bad and wrong??????!!!! I see she love's me but there is some fear of being hurt if she stays. I told her straigh I love you and want to be with you, and you can count on me always!!!
Now I feel like crap, I miss her , I think about her, what else I can do? I think I'll wait till she eventualy call.i think she is afraid of getting hurt so she just trying to avoid that.....I don't understand....what to do...I don't want to put preshure on her, so I'm not calling, but for how long? I feel sad but trying to play it cool......

so I'm not calling, but for how long?

So she said I want call you in a few days

But keep in mind:

I don't feel anything for you so we better don't see each other.

I lie wounded, on wintery ground
With hundreds of corpses, all around
Many wounded, crawl helpless around
On the blood, red snowy ground

War!
War!
War!
War!


War!
War!
War!
War!

Many hours, of mu-music
Many drops, of blood
Many shiverings, and I am... DEAD!
And still, we must never give up

War!
War!
War!
War!

Yes, nice song ahhhhh...but still I don't know what to do! It's been 5 days and I haven't talked with her. I feel the urge to do it but I'm staying away from the phone and listening Burzum ti keep my pain and anger under control!

put her on a cross and burn her in a church or stab her lol jk dont do those but

find a new gf