I just broke up with my girl friend i truely love, she is my...

I just broke up with my girl friend i truely love, she is my everything, but i am 18 and she is 14, her parent have not let us see each other since the first 4 months of the relationship, i can never see her, she goes to a different school, and she changed alot, not the girl i fell in love with. Ive been constantly breaking up with her and i wasnt able to control it, and i finally realized why. It was beacuse i just could not love her anymore, like i still do, but at the same time, its too hurtfull, she lives withihn walking distance(a long walk or 10 minute bike ride), annd i can never see her, its almost become too much for me to handle, im always depressed, always sad, i cant help it, i wake up feeling like nothing else matters, like i dont care, but i just cant be with her when i cant have that connection to her, so today i gained the guts and told her their was no way, i told her i didnt love her, so that she would maybe accept it, and she did, but like sometimes when ive been trying to break up with her she now is saying she wants to commit suicide, and im gonna have a dead person on my shoulders, this has happened to me before, and i honestly didnt love that girl so i just didnt even notice, but i care for this one, and if she commited suicide i dont know what i would do, i love her but cant be with her, any thoughts on what to do, i dont want her to kill herself i just cant keep hurting my self

we were dating for 9 months today BTW

First of all I highly recommend making an account, that will make responses faster and people can send you private messages and friend you. Honestly as much as age has nothing to do with love, sometimes you may have to draw the line. The reason her parents are not letting you see her is because first of all your four years older than her which may upset her parents and make them worried about their daughter, and secondly she's only 14, she shouldn't be put under the pressures of a relationship. Sometimes the best way to deal with things is to simply let go, you say you love her but you are still most likely in the "honeymoon" phase of the breakup and you're still panicked. Give it time and see if she is who you really want. The fact that you say you're depressed always sad and you wake up feeling like nothing else matters tells me that you still should give things time and come to some realizations. People panic after a breakup, trust me I know from experience, and you should just leave things alone. As for how you are feeling, it is perfectly normal and you should being to feel better as the days go on. I'm sorry if it's not what you wanted to hear, but it might just be the truth.

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