I made a huge mistake

My ex finace decided to move back to his home town over 6000 km away, he gave me 3 months to go with him, he begged me to go with him.
But my pride and my fear of living with his mum and moving so far away from my parents prevented me from going. I looked for a job there and everything, although I had a job where we were already living which I loved.
Anyway, he left and I was to join him in 2 months and 10 days later he called breaking up with me saying if I actually loved him then I'd be with him over there.
I'm heartbroken and I know I should have gone with him. I broke us up and I don't know how to fix it. I miss him everyday! I don't understand why I didn't just leave.
Since then I've quit my job, moved back home and cry I don't know what to do. Please help!

dont put all the blame on your self...if he actually loved you he wouldnt have left you so soon...he would've considered your feelings in all of this...

im sorry to hear that you have quit your job...there will be other jobs so dont fret...

for now have a talk with him to sort things out if thats possible at all and explain how you feel about him don't hold anything back and see how he he feels..

Thanks, I did that already and he made it perfectly clear how he feels. He blamed me for everything and is hella angry with me, says I made too many mistakes.

He says we're done as a couple, but his phone is always open and I can call him anytime, but he's been so mean and has strung me along, broken my heart again.

He sucker-punched me with this break up, and I honestly thought I'd be over there by his side already.

How do I get past this?