courtesy of echoln
i just wish he’d see I could easily be everything he’s looking for.
how do I get someone who I put in the friendzone out of the friendzone? it’s like I talk to this guy about everything, and I keep him I’m the friendzone just because I like him being that one guy I can tell anything to. I mean I don’t even know if he actually likes me, but he’s shown some kind of interest every now and then, but it’s like every time I say something stupid to shut him down. I almost want to believe that maybe he does like me, and he’s afraid to say what he’s really thinking just like I am. I just feel like half the time I can’t say what I want to because I’m afraid that he’s not thinking the same thing I am, and that will just demolish the friendship. it would just make things awkward. let’s say even if we did express feelings for eachother and we decide to give things a shot, and then they don’t work out? then I lose him as a friend anyway even when we did try things? What if he thinks its weird that I’ve just recently started to admit that I’ve kinda always liked him, and then he ends up just pushing me away from him? What if I admit what I’m really thinking and he doesn’t want to be my friend anymore.
I just can’t bring myself to admit anything because once I do that, then wheres no turning back.
I mean I like being his friend and all but I just get jealous when he talks about girls or dating advice. I mean I could so easily be all that he’s ever wanted in a girlfriend, I honestly believe I could be that for him, but how am I supposed to know that knowing I don’t even have a chance just because I’m afraid to admit whatever feelings I think I’m starting to have? I just don’t even know how to bring it up or how to go about it. I guess more than anything I’m just afraid he isn’t interested in me like I think I am with him, and I’ll just end up feeling like a fool because I read the signs wrong. I just wish I had the courage to be straight up about it and just confront him, but that’s a whole lot easier said then done.