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ok, well I am 15 years old and so is my girl. Me and her have had a really rocky relationship.. We've both gave eachother reasons not to trust eachother.. She's cheated on me and I've also sadly done the same.. We've been together a year and 7 months on the 28th. The only thing is, I can't see her. She was put in placement after disobeying her probation for smoking pot.. She's been gone almost 3 months but her placement time only began about a month ago.. She got 6 months in that place and I get six months out here... She thinks I should b perfectly happy since im on the "outside" but truthfully i'm not.. She said she'd stop but all she was doing was bringing me down more and more by telling me she wish she didn't love me and calling me disguisting for cutting myself. She tells me I'm not being mature but it's not a matter of maturity, in fact, if anyones immatuure it's her for being in there in the first place. I gotta say no matter how much she brings me down my love for her doesnt change. All my friends hate her, my family doesn't like her.. I'm the only one thats on her side and she does that shit... It really upsets me. Cutting myself isn't something i announce.. I do it on the top of my thighs so its hidden. But when she gets mad and tears me down i just slice my legs till im bleeding so much I practically just fade in and out of conquiesness. I've had problems with cutting before but it was never this bad. I tried breaking up with her just to help myself but she gave me the altimatum to either stay with her or break up and never speak again.... Now, if you've ever been in love than you know wat i chose. We're doing better, but I practically told everyone I was breaking up with her but I couldn't... I don't know.. I guess I'd like some advice.. But truthfully I just needed to vent. This computer won't ignore me ya know? Thanks... <3
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