I've known my ex bf for 10 yrs. We broke up 9 yrs ago due to me being clingy and not giving him enough space. I finally moved on, stopped talking to my ex, got married, had a baby with my husband, then we got divorced, and I started thinking about my ex again. I came back into his life and he was happy I did. We started having sex and he told me he still loved me. But then I messed up and got clingy, all over again. He got mad, got over it, gave me 2 more chances, I got clingy and needy AGAIN, and this time, he moved on from me and got another gf. I begged him not to be with her bc she is 10 yrs younger than him (he's 31) and I'm his age. I told him they wouldn't work out. He told me he was going to stay with her and let the relationship take its course, but that we could remain friends. He said he loved me but in a "I don't want anything bad to happen to you" way. Anyway, him and I talked ALL THE TIME while he was with his gf (I was being a friend, but in between, every now and then, I'd annoy him about us being together, but he'd get over it and remain friends with me). So 7 months later, they moved in together, she went crazy on him (setting fire to his place and breaking his computer!) so he broke up with her and kicked her out after 9 months of being together. But, he still hasn't told me they broke up (I know they did though from another source). I guess he doesn't trust me, so lately, I've been trying to change bc he said that he was too good for me months ago and that he didn't like my personality. So, I've been doing well...I really AM changing, something he thinks I can't do, but I'm actually doing it. I'm not selfish anymore, and everyone around me has noticed a change in me. I even sent him an email saying that if he ever needs to talk to someone, I'm here for him, and that I love him, but if he wants to be with his gf or whoever, that's all that matters and I'll be happy for him. He never responded to my email, and he's still acting as if they are still together, when I know they are not. Do I have a chance with this guy? Right now, I'm just trying to be a good friend, but he won't tell me anything. We used to talk for hours - now it feels like he's shut down on me. He doesn't initiate conversations with me anymore...nothing. What gives, and why is he lying to me? I love this guy so much, and I'm giving him lots of space to open up to me and he's not. I'm scared I'm losing him out of my life. What should I do?
