I have nothing better to do right now, I am in a rehab because MRSA opened a hole in my heart. It is going to be months before I regain my previous power, which was not much, thanks to MRSA. The last few months have been eye opening to say the least. My wife has been placed in home detention. My father is yelling at everyone about how he did what he had to do to me for the good of the family. He was telling my mother that I had to be controlled because I never learned my place. Even told everyone that the only reason he raised me was for work. He said I had to go get married and get myself happy for a little while which added to the problem.
When my wife came back to my hometown the six months prior to my discharge from the military he scared her to death recounting stories of just how unsportsmanlike and uncivilized I could be when I got tired of being pushed beyond limits that others would not have put up with for a second. He about this problem as a situation where his son did not know when to shut his mouth and accept the circumstance, weather it is deserved or not. Because I am what he calls a 6′4″ tall Frankenstein he said it was to dangerous to allow me to have the same rights and considerations others enjoyed, I had to be controlled!
We live in a conservative state with both farm concerns, and manufacturing, I worked in manufacturing with a union, when I went back to work after the navy, I thought that I was now in charge of my life. Many felt different, even with seniority rights I gained over the years. My father had many friends that worked in my plant that had sons on ball teams he coached or helped with. Found out every time I tried to switch a shift to days, or take a weekend off, a vacation, have a holiday like Christmas or Thanksgiving off, I had to take the back seat to someone with kids or farmed on the side. If I did not do as the others wanted they would run to my dad and tell him how unfair I was being to others with children. We got into some very bad fights over my conduct but always ended up caving in to others demands.
I asked when I was thirty nine from my union and my father when I was going to have a day off after not having one for almost three years, I was tired, I found myself being transferred to a new department and going to the bottom of the list again, My father just said that I was tough and needed to understand that my own needs had to take the back seat to the needs of others. I pointed out I had not even had sex with my wife in years. He said there you go again thinking about your own pleasure instead of the needs of others. They finally lost control of me when I again started standing up for myself again, I was finally forced to retire after 31 years. I had told a congressman and a governor that I was not put there to obey an edict they expected me to obey on two different occasions. Both my wife and father were furious, My father said I have never learned my true place in this world, he repeated that in my room the other day, I thru my lunch tray at him, and told him my true place was burying a knife in the foot of those that think there is a true place and would place their boot on my neck.
I was yelling that I had tried the go along to get along bit for to long. It was not my place to kiss every **** that thinks they have a right to it, The staff sedated me to keep me from doing harm to myself. FSSA has come in to talk to me, a state representative has talked to me, and a mental health official has talked to me, Each and every one of them left feeling I had been abused in a conspiracy pushed by my father, My wife is not apologetic about her part that caused everything to come to a head, she just says that it hurt her as much as it did me, she said the more she tried to regain control the more I would resist until she was very afraid of me. especially after what I did to her old boyfriend the morning I confronted them, she said what I did was barbaric and meant to do far reaching harm.
My father was there when the state representative came and we talked about the abuse of people by bullying, coercion, and collusion. My wife was in the room, so was my mother. as part of the conversation my father put his own two cents in about **** I had had my head filled with ideas off fairness that were just impractical in the real world, he said that in our society there should be a rigid hierarchy that is followed for all citizens or else society would collapse. If certain people had to be kept down like me then it was needed for the good of everyone, he said life did not have to be fair and one day I would understand.
There was not a person in that room that agreed. I said that right now we are entering into a time when there is the country club set that thinks everyone is placed on this earth to serve them. Society does have classes in our nation, but whenever a section of that society sets up an abuse of another section of that society, it is situation for storming the Bastille so to speak. I said I will actively watch out for my own rights from now on and would never again subvert my needs and wants to others. Told my father that he was wrong for his idiotic opinion, also said to the state representative that I would be in the way of anyone that wanted a highly classed society.
Scared everyone in the room. My father said a feeling like what I have is has a lot of danger and could start class warfare and a civil war if to many people felt the way I do.