I have been with my boyfriend for eight months now and i love him so much, but i find it hard to trust him. He has never lied or been unfaithful, nor had he ever given me any reason to not trust him.
2 years ago i was in a 3 year relationship which ended due to my ex cheating on me, at a party which we were both at, but it wasnt just a kiss. I have had a few boyfriends between now and then, but have never really loved them or felt for them, not the way i do my current boyfriend.
But i cant trust him, when he goes out im wondering what he is doing, even if i know he is with his friends i wonder if they are hanging out with girls. He is so kind and i dont really think he would do anything to hurt me yet still, I get worked up about him being out. It sometimes get to the point where i have convinced myself that he has done somthing, because he hasnt text me back quick enough so i start to worry and i know the people he has been out with are home.
the last few weeks have been very hard for us and my issue is effecting us big style, im always moody with him and constantly grilling him, and i dont have any reason. This is just resulting in arguing. He keeps asking why we are arguing, what has he done wrong. And i know he hasnt done anything so what is my problem.
I really want to trust him, i love him with all my heart, and there is no reason for my distrust.
I think it may be because, i was hurt before and if i convince myself its going to happen again it wont hurt as bad, but oviously this is rediculous!I Just needed to tell someone, he doesnt really understand, and i dont feel my friends will, as they all get on so well and know he is a great guy.
If anyone could give me some kind of advice or anything that would be great
thanks for reading
