Well here goes. I am a home-schooled 17-year-old, and I am about to graduate from home high school. I am going to be going to college starting fall, but I am really nervous. The reason is, because I have been home schooled, I lack social skills and things related. I would say I am very introverted. Just talking to someone is extremely difficult. I always hear people talking about how they talked to someone for a couple of hours, and I wonder how on earth that is possible. I can barely have a 10-minute conversation. Every time I am involved in a two-person conversation, there are always awkward silences, and the other person almost always does the talking. Like if we were talking about cars, and he said,"Yeah, I had a good time at the car convention". I would have no clue as to what to say next. I would usually say something like "that's good" or "oh, ic".
I've borrowed some books from the library as to how to make conversation, and they say to ask the other person questions, let that person know you're interested in him or her. But whenever I do that, the conversations get so boring and dull. Whenever I see two people talking, and they're laughing and smiling, I wonder how they do it. And going to college, I fear I won't know what to do at all. I have never really had the chance to make friends in the past few years, so trying to make friends all of a sudden (in college) will be difficult. I've been in some high school classes before, and whenever I am sitting next to someone, that person usually doesn't talk to me, and I don't talk to that person. Whenever I do talk, it usually ends right after that. I think that people at my college won't want to make friends with a home schooled 17 year old, and won't take the time to even get to know me.
I know some of you will say "Just try your best to make friends, and once you meet the right people, you won't have any trouble talking or conversing". That's not true. I have met the perfect people to be my friends, and I can never say anything to them. They just slip away. I have confidence, but I am also aware that I don't know how to be social. I don't want to live that way. I always dream a lot of being popular, hanging out with cool people and having girls like me and things like that. I just don't know how I can ever be that person. I know, as of now, my social skills (on a scale of 1-10) are 0 or 1. But for some weird reason, I feel I can move up that scale pretty high. Even my horoscopes say that I will become a very outgoing person
. I know that this is very broad, and there's no way you could help me with everything, but any advice will help
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