Wondering if i had done the right thing or not?

Please read Before you Judge.....

well, i was with a guy for about 8 months and i ended up getting pregnant at the age of 15 years old, i found out on my 16th birthday. I reallly wanted to keep it, but the guy i was with was very rude about the whole situation and both of our parents didnt want me too, so i had to get rid of it I think it is the hardest thing i have ever had to do. I really didnt want too, but i new that if i didnt then i would be stuck taking care of a baby all by my self and i dropped out of school at the time and my family was not supportive. But now i am back in school. The day i had got rid of it, he was all over me and trying to have sex :O how rude!!!!! I feel reallly bad for what i did i think about it 24-7 wondering if i did the right thing or not. wondering if it would of been a boy or a girl. wondering what it would of looked like. and then about a week after i had to get rid of it i found out he has been cheating on me for about a month. and he has been with that girl for over a year, and she is pregnant and they are both really happy and excited, and i am so hurt i just wonder why he wasnt excited like that with me and why he made me get rid of it but is excited when it comes to this other girl.Then my cousin who is a year younger then me found out she was pregnant after a month i was..so if i would of kept mine our baby's would of been a month apart and she kept her's and i think if she could do it, then i could of done it. and she made me feel worse about it.Sometimes i feel like i should just die or something because i killed a innocent thing that didnt ask to be in my womb and im still living and its dead.

I wonder if it is in heaven?
The situation is really hard on me.
I will never forgive myself for what i had to do.
I dont think it was right. I think about it all the time. I havent really told that many people besides my family because alot of people judge people about it.
If you had read this Please dont judge me.
by the way i am only 17.
so please dont be harsh.

can someone please help me

Sunshine..

People are not perfect, and though I am copletely against abortion under any circumstances, I can understand how one would feel like it would of "ruined" your life..
It's tough, but just because you have a baby does not mean that it's over, or that you can't go to school.

But stop hurting yourself over it, things happen for a reason and everything in your life has a meaning. Stop torturing yourself over an asshole who's not worth it.
Think about it this way, you know what it is to be pregnant and how much it hurts to have to abort it, so next time think twice about not using a condom or taking care of yourself.

Move on and keep living life to the fullest, enjoy everything you do and go out and meet new people.. Don't fall for the first idiot you meet.



Goodluck and Godbless..

thank you
that made me feel better.

it just sucks so much because i wanted to keep it soo bad but my parents didn't let me.
=hank you
that made me feel better.

it just sucks so much because i wanted to keep it soo bad but my parents didn't let me.
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